Fixed upon the empty road
Thinking that the world was done
Irrationally, inordinately
Death comes to terrorize me
Missing missing missing dead
Ringing in my head
Missing missing missing missing dead
Ringing in my head
Missing missing missing missing dead
Unable to forget
Living memory end in tears
Death incarnates all my fears
Type the name, type the number
Indelible, can’t disremember
Angel of death, the master says,
Find the pictures of the dead
Crop them down to neck and head
I cannot bear, the angel says
Trying to pierce the veil of reality
All that lasts I cannot see
Trying hard to still believe
But I’m an exile in corporeality
I know there’s more than meets the eye
Search for truth and question why
Sometimes I’m just too tired to try
To deny illusion and it’s lie
The world I see is just too much with me
Too close to avoid the touch
The tainted fruit, the hopeless clutch
Faint pleasure never is enough
Was deaf, I hear, was blind, I see
Deluded and you pitied me
As you forgive, refuse to blame
Help me now to do the same
The world I see is just too much with me …
Cessation sweeter for the pain
Maddening cycle yet again
To err again, I pray forfend
When will you let this exile end?
Too late, the clarity begins
Dissolute, resolve again
The scales that feel now weigh my sin
You rend the veil, absolve again
The world I see is just too much with me …
I railed and screamed ‘til I can’t hear
To painful now to let you near
Your voice and you have disappeared
I’m frightened, I don’t seem to care
Forgetting why I’m struggling still
Can only smile in ridicule
Deafened by the silence
The ringing in my ears
Resounding false harmonics
Reverberate my fears
Benumbed for all these years
Benumbed for all these years
I feel alone but that’s okay
Don’t want your pity anyway
This careful balance night and day
Choose not to choose and here I stay
Inward focus holding on
I long for joy I don’t understand
Deafened by this silence …
You hold the mirror
I start to see
The churn beneath the icy sheen
A candle in the dry-ice gloom
Hides as much as it shows me
More lost that I’d known before
Are you still the one that I adore?
Deafened by this silence …
Don’t look here for my meaning
Locked within my mind
Words are just a hazard
At emotions I can’t find
Walls keep you out
Keep me in
Now trapped between
Two minds in sin
Hidden in unconsciousness
What is it that I’ve done?
The fear I mustn’t know
Other, never one
Walls keep you out …
Eyes strain against the darkness
Question what I see
Questions render silence
And silence renders me
Walls keep you out …
Faith I’ll never understand
Says I’m not alone
A ringing in my ears
A disconnected phone
Walls keep you out …
My doubts and all my fears
My struggles and all my tears
It will all pass away
I’m dancing to my grave
Dancing to my grave
Dancing to my grave
Dancing to my grave
No longer a slave
My debts and all my bills
The wages of all my ills
My wants and my desires
All that makes me tired
Dancing to my grave …
All that I offend
Forgive me at the end
I’ll forgive you too
I screw this life up, too
Dancing to my grave …
One thing I desire
Not in this darkened mire
All other things must pass
Come on, let’s start this dance
Dancing to my grave …
Roses in winter
Pierce my frozen heart
While hail blinds ambition
Mercy impart
Send me your roses
Send me your prayers
I’m wandering cold and lonely
And I need to know you’re there
Red, the blood of children
Thorns, the pain they felt
Sorrow, deep as snowdrifts
That only grace can melt
Send me your roses …
Mercy out of season
From you who bore my pain
Frozen hope eternal
Send me flowers again
Send me your roses …
Everything I really want is not what I desire
All my choices are but vanity, they make me feel a liar
I mean well, but it all just comes out wrong
So bring me back, it seems I’ve been away too long
Seeking answers in the silent dark, I can’t see where to go
You’ve been calling me, I’ve been so lost, I didn’t even know
Shattered, disillusioned and alone
And still you’re here again, to lead me home
I was laughing in the rain, but all I did was catch a cold
I’m weeping in the puddles, left behind and feeling old
Drowning in the shallows of my life
Won’t you help me please, to get it right?
In self-induced confusion, I’m bemused and unaware
And I’m stunned that you still know me, and much less even care
Enthralled by death but still you said, “Please live.”
I’m astounded once again, you can forgive
I’m deafened by the world
The noise of daily strife
Happiness forgotten
In this monotony of life
Have I here a purpose
A mission to fulfill?
Ere the angels call our number
And the riders do their will
I know they are approaching
I shall answer for my wrongs
Among the sheep and goats, to which will I belong?
I know their names and they know mine
For two thousand years, man has been warned
And now I fear I’ve failed the course
I know they are approaching …
Ten rules, they were too many
So they became just one
Humanity still stumbles
And I’m frightened by what I’ve done
I know they are approaching …
I’m grasping at illusions, toiling for my pay
Gaining but a morsel, will they take it away
Do you have a better answer, do you have a better way?
Just the truth is all I’m asking, but that’s not what they say
How long will our hearts be heavy?
How long will this drudge go on?
How long my desires elude me?
How long must I long?
They’ll flatter me with pictures of what will ease my pain
Satisfy my groanings, but it’s all for their gain
They’ve blathered on for so long, it’s all just sounding trite
What ever you can sell me, I’m sorry not tonight
How long will our hearts be heavy? …
Pleasures ever ending when my credit reaches null
We all deserve much better, we know this all too well
The enemy’s not invading, pain undistracted still
As we bomb another people for the oil in their well
How long will our hearts be heavy? …
The truth ablaze, the smoke a maze, struggling for a breath
Really all I’m praying for is a still night and peaceful death
Real truth must last much longer than Rather’s Nightly News
Bloodshed or generosity, my friends, it’s ours to choose
How long will our hearts be heavy? …
This won’t go on forever
At least not this part you see
And when your part is over
Then where will you be |